You think you have all the time in the world and then one day your world comes to an abrupt stop.
On October 02, 2013 I lost my mom to lung cancer that progressed to terminal cancer. Those last two years were hard...not just for me, but also my family. To watch the one person you thought was super woman because her name is "mom" to go through so much pain, yet try to live everyday as everything is normal is so hard on the soul.
We found out in late 2011 when the doctors diagnosed her with cancer again. Yes again! She was having a terrible cough and thought it might have been bronchitis. But we were wrong. When I was a child my mother had cancer that went into remission. Over 20 years later it returned, and in full force. Since she was older her body was not healing as fast as it used to. At first I didn't want to accept it because she didn't smoke or drink or do other drugs. I thought it would just pass. Shortly after, my mom gathered the strength like she always did and planned her own funeral...even down to the color of her casket and what she wanted to wear. She made it seem like she was going away on a short vacation and would be back.
I went through denial for a while, and then I started getting sick and having upper respiratory issues. It was like my body was mimicking my mother's symptoms because I didn't want to her to feel the pain alone. I went through countless doctors, surgeries, and what I thought were asthma attacks, but they couldn't find anything. But all along it was my heart breaking.
It has been a little over a year now since my mother's homecoming and her getting her wings. I know she is still with me and strange things prove she is still here. So as you can see this is not just a Walk for me...it's saying I believe and want others to believe one step at a time.